Lord, hear my prayer...


Heavenly Father,
I know I made a big mistake.  I'm working very hard to change.  I know that you're a God of second changes but lately I feel that I've failed my life before I really had the change to live it.  It's been a year since love fled and I'm still hurt.  I'm scared Lord.  What am I supposed to do?  I know I failed in that relationship but I don't want to fail.  I want to believe but I'm having a hard time believing past what I see right now.  I don't feel you like I should.  I need to let go, I need to move on but every step forward only brings another step back.  I don't want to hurt anymore.  I'm listening for your voice, looking for your guidance.  I feel stuck Lord, tired of this hurt and I fear that the darkness inside is seeping out.  Help me Lord, I don't want to be this way anymore.  I'm believing Lord.  I know you've got this, Lord God.  I bless your name, you are my rock my shield, my provider, my everything.  I can do nothing without you, I don't want anything that hasn't been sent by you.  I don't want to travel down a path that you haven't prepared for me.  Thank you for being a loving God and God of second chances.  You know my pain Lord.  I place these burdens, this hurt at your feet and take on the peace that Your Word promises.  Thank you Lord, for everything.

In Jesus' name I pray.

Amen

Truth is

This can't be real.  Everytime I close my eyes all I see is you on top of me.

I recognize that these feelings have been bread out of convenience.  We both are missing things from our lives and these...feelings fill said void.  However we know how this is going to end; and it's not worth the risk.  I would just be a hole, temp satisfaction.  And I deserve better.  I'm sorry for complicating things.  The energy is there but we must keep denying it, not mentioning it will cause it to fade.  I cherish what we have you have become a bright spot in my life.  Please never take that away from me.  We have the type chemistry people dream of.  Thank you for listening, for caring, for being uberdope.  But know that if ever a time comes and the universe aligns itself just so, I will be here for you no matter what. 

You have secured a special place in my heart, always.

Tonight

In bed playing with my (new) phone.

Wish you were here.

DreamLover

It is a Saturday, we sleep in.  Your hands rest on my hips, I arch my back to fit the mold of your body and groan.  You kiss my shoulders, rub my belly and groan in response.  The clock says 7am.  Your hand cups my right breast, playing with my nipple causing me to poke my booty out.  Your morning wood responds.  I  try to go back to sleep but you're grinding on me, placing your dick between my booty cheeks, breathing hard in my ear, saying nothing and everything at the same time.  I smile, you can feel it.  You bite my ear and I turn over to face you.

"Good morning."

You kiss me, hard like you miss me, your erection standing at attention.  I touch it and you groan.  We kiss some more, tongues intertwining, teeth clicking against each other.  You pull my hips on top of you.  Hands intertwined you enter me, invading my center.  I can feel you in my abdomen.  You're not allowed to touch me.  I rotate my hips every way I know how to make them go burying my head in your neck, sucking your ear and letting out sexy yelps.  You're still not allowed to touch me.  We say nothing, no words just sounds; our hips in unison, our grind succinct.

Still no words.

You've had enough of my games.  You put me on my stomach and enter me, watching my ass jiggle which each thrust.  You put your arm around my throat, grunt in my ear repeatedly, holding down my hips so I can't move.  Our perspiration mixes.  You taste so sweet.  I arch my back, make it poke out a bit so I can catch those thrusts.  You bite my shoulder, tighten up the choke out and go deeper. Your hand tickles my clitoris, rubbing urgently, coaxing my orgasm.  I give into your demands.

I come, leaving my evidence all over your finger, squeezing your ending out.

'I'm about to come," you announce.

You pull out, stroke your cock and wait for what you already know is coming.  I put you in my mouth, replacing your hand,  taking you all the way in, my tongue tracing the rim of your bulbous head.  I can only hope my mouth is as wet as I was.  You play in my hair, pumping ur hips upward while pushing my head downward, as your climax approaches.

You come, I swallow. Your eyes never leave mine.

I take my tongue I run it around your balls. You twitch.  I kiss the insides of your thighs.  You moan.  I lick your belly button.  You sigh.  I pinch your left nipple while sucking on the right one.  You smile.

Resting my head on your chest I listen to your heart while you play in my hair, my tongue still teasing your nipple.

No words are needed.
Round two is on the horizon.

My (Our?) First Hangout

Wonder if he knew I was scantily clad?
He's so handsome.
His teeth are so white.
His complexion so beautiful.
Our geek speak is awesome.
His smile.
His laugh.
His speech.
His intelligence leaks out of everything he says and does.
His eyes.
His hands.
He's sweet, not corrupt like me.  He's wonderful in every way and I can't help wishing he was mine.

The lady that put that ring on your finger is blessed beyond measure.  Because we are friends, I pray with all my heart that things in your home get better because you not only deserve happiness, you deserve nirvana.

Prayer for my future husband

I used to pray to You because I was lonely,
but then You came to me and I was lonely no more.
Then I prayed to You to make me better,
and You came to me and healed my heart.
Now I ask You, dear God, for a glorious mission.
May I contribute to the life of another,
in the deepest way,
the most holy way,
the most loving way,
that together we might serve You more.
May I help a beloved grow closer to You.
May a beloved help me grow closer to You.
May I delight in my partner, and my partner delight in me,
that Your light which unites us might light up the world.
Thank you, God.
I’m Jesus name I pray
Amen

Claims

I speak blessings, I speak favor, and I speak greatness over my life.  I refused to be defeated, down or depressed today and everyday! I am blessed. I am prosperous. I am healthy and strong. I have favor. No weapon formed against me shall prosper. I am the head and not the tail, above only and not beneath." “I am a lender, not a borrower.

Prayer

Father in heaven, thank You for Your good and precious promises. I choose to trust that my reward is coming. I choose to follow Your commands because they lead to blessing and life. Give me a heart that is fixed on You and fill me with Your peace. I patiently wait on You. In Jesus' Name. Amen.

- Joel O.

So on time this morning....

Finding inner peace within my soul....still can't help but to think of what tomorrow holds....forgiveness is hard but from this point on my dreams come true.....Selah