Sex And The City

I'm am the biggest fan of this show. Not just because of the fashion (OMG the bridal coutoure VOGUE shoot in the movie made my nipples hard) but because of the friendship. The fact that these four women come from completely different backgrounds and places but are the best of friends makes me thankful for my friends, all of the broads I call friends anyway and those are the lucky chosen few. Carrie, Miranda, Charlotte and Samantha epitomize what every woman needs in her life; ride or die chicks. Without friendships like that, what is a girl to do? I have female friends who say 'oh, I don't get along with females like that' but on the real, what would you do if you couldn't call your girl at 3am to cry and bitch about the latest thing that dude did. Now I will say, a gay man is a great subsitute for a female. BUT the gays get it poppin! Their clubs stay open later then regular hetero clubs so....I'm not hating or saying that you should descriminate but keep that in mind. I've spent so much of my life alone and running from...whatever it was that was bothering me at the time that it was hard to cultivate these types of friendships. And although I'm selfish at times and put myself before any trip or any 'thing' my college roommates want to do, I do value them as friends. I need to start showing that more. This past (29th, damn a bitch is old) birthday was a lonely one. I spent it with my daughter and other then that......alone. Plenty of calls and a plethora of emails from associates and the Amazons but that's about it. Felt kinda sad but I made the most of it.

Miss my girls from college but I'm lucky to have met some fantastic females at this stage of my life that are just what the doctor ordered. Our lives are very different (at least mine is) but we all click in our own special way. Everyone needs to know that they're not, and never will be alone.

SATC is a handbook to women, regardless of race, creed or color that friendships and relationships go hand and hand and should be handled with care as such. I love my friends as much if not more than any man that comes into my life; he should know it (and respect it) and vice versa. Any man that comes into my life has to meet the Amazons, the roommates and my beloved sister because their opinion is highly regarded (lol) but not the final answer. If you're over 20, you know that sometimes it takes someone else's opinion for you to realize any potential flaws in your mate and/or your relationship. That's a tidbit for the ages....

In both relationships, in order for it to work, both parties have to be willing to meet in the middle of the Brooklyn Bridge :) .........

The First Step....

It has come to my attention that I may have been harboring some ill feelings towards my baby daddy. Inadequacy is a hard pill to swallow and that's exactly how I feel. I was with this dude for 5 years, playing wifey and putting up with his short comings (more like fast cummings, literally) and just.....settling. Yes our relationship was completely whack and thank GOD we never married b/c...well that wouldn't have ended in anything nice. But now he's manning up, just for somebody else. That's where my anger comes in. I have his only child and this dude NEVER did any of the things he does for this other broad for me and his child. He never offered to move us to another place, never offered to pay for daycare (or anything for that matter) or help me with any of my bills, never offered to work more then one job to support me and his child. But this broad comes along and all the sudden he's a man? Yes our relationship wasn't the best towards the end. It wasn't always like that. And all the things I did for him, he's reciprocating to another woman who doesn't have his child.

This has nothing to do with me wanting him back by any means b/c the sex was whack and there was no trust. Without trust, there cannot be any love. But my daughter deserves better then some weekend dad. He's taking care of another man's child and leaving his by the wayside for another man to take care of. Such a vicious cycle.

So I'm announcing my anger, recognizing it and renouncing it all in the span of 5 minutes. Everytime I feel this anger and contentment rising up in me, I will renounce it and say a short prayer for my BD's eternal happiness. It's gonna be hard but this is my pledge and hopefully I can surrender this anger to GOD and become a better person because of it.

Have you "renounced the hidden things of shame" in your life— the things that your sense of honor or pride will not allow to come into the light? You can easily hide them. Is there a thought in your heart about anyone that you would not like to be brought into the light? Then renounce it as soon as it comes to mind— renounce everything in its entirety until there is no hidden dishonesty or craftiness about you at all. Envy, jealousy, and strife don’t necessarily arise from your old nature of sin, but from the flesh which was used for these kinds of things in the past (see Romans 6:19 and 1 Peter 4:1-3 ). You must maintain continual watchfulness so that nothing arises in your life that would cause you shame.

I'm envious that my BD is being the man for someone else that he couldn't be for me. And that it may be my fault that my daughter will grow up without a father. Everytime this thought comes to mind, I will renounce it and surrender it to GOD for him to do with what he will.

Church - Sunday September 14th 2008

There are times in your spiritual life when there is confusion, and the way out of it is not simply to say that you should not be confused. It is not a matter of right and wrong, but a matter of God taking you through a way that you temporarily do not understand. And it is only by going through the spiritual confusion that you will come to the understanding of what God wants for you.

The Shrouding of His Friendship (see Luke 11:5-8 ). Jesus gave the illustration here of a man who appears not to care for his friend. He was saying, in effect, that is how the heavenly Father will appear to you at times. You will think that He is an unkind friend, but remember?He is not. The time will come when everything will be explained. There seems to be a cloud on the friendship of the heart, and often even love itself has to wait in pain and tears for the blessing of fuller fellowship and oneness. When God appears to be completely shrouded, will you hang on with confidence in Him?

The Shadow on His Fatherhood (see Luke 11:11-13 ). Jesus said that there are times when your Father will appear as if He were an unnatural father?as if He were callous and indifferent— but remember, He is not. "Everyone who asks receives . . ." ( Luke 11:10 ). If all you see is a shadow on the face of the Father right now, hang on to the fact that He will ultimately give you clear understanding and will fully justify Himself in everything that He has allowed into your life.

The Strangeness of His Faithfulness (see Luke 18:1-8 ). "When the Son of Man comes, will He really find faith on the earth?" ( Luke 18:8 ). Will He find the kind of faith that counts on Him in spite of the confusion? Stand firm in faith, believing that what Jesus said is true, although in the meantime you do not understand what God is doing. He has bigger issues at stake than the particular things you are asking of Him right now.

Don't know about anyone else but I needed this right about now. Everything that is piling down on me, I needed to be reminded that my faith is being tested and that I need no look to anyone but GOD for answers and soltice. The plan will be revealed in due time but for right now I give thanks for the opportunity to grow both mentally and spiritually through this journey. Plus, GOD gots other things to do!

Mad Max

Extremely excited to see Maxwell *gasp* on tour again after some crazh hiadus. Below is a list of his tour dates:

Tour Dates:
Oct 3
Bloemfontein, SA
Bloemfontein Showgrounds

Oct 5
Amsterdam, NL
Heineken Music Hall

Oct 8
Boston
Opera House

Oct 9
*Sold Out*
New York
Radio City Music Hall

Oct 10
Wallingford
Chevrolet Theatre

Oct 12
Toronto
Massey Theatre

Oct 14
Cincinnati
The Taft Theatre

Oct 15
St. Louis
Fox Theatre

Oct 17
Indianapolis
Murat Theater

Oct 18
Chicago
Chicago Theater

Oct 19
Detroit
Fox Theatre

Oct 21
Minneapolis
Orpheum Theater

Oct 22
Omaha
Music Hall

Oct 23
Kansas City
Uptown Theatre

Oct 25
Denver
Paramount Theatre

Oct 28
Oakland
Paramount Theatre

Oct 31
Las Vegas
Pearl

Nov 1
Los Angeles
Shrine Auditorium

Nov 6
*Sold Out*
Houston
Verizon Theatre

Nov 8
Dallas
Majestic Theatre

Nov 10
Birmingham
BJCC Hall

Nov 11
Memphis
Orpheum Theater

Nov 12
Atlanta
Civic Center

Nov 14
Greensboro
Coliseum Theatre

Nov 15
Richmond
Landmark Theatre

Nov 17
Washington DC
Constitution Hall

Nov 21

Philadephia
Susquehanna Center

Yeah I'm from Philly. Keep a close eye on his myspace page for any updated information. Looks like he's keeping a close eye on ticket sales (Houston sold out already?) and is updating it accordingly. If you're a fan like me, this is NOT the concert to miss. I'm anxious to see exactly what songs he pulls out of the vault AND I want to hear more tracks from Black. Summers. Night. Check the playlist widget for TVBO Mad Max, my personal favs.