The more time I spend with LOML the happier I am that I'm not with him....that's a good look God foreal. I love him but it's not the same. I prayed for him to love me, I'm happy with the capacity even if it's not romantic.
I want to call.....want to reach out but everytime I think about it all I hear is your voice booming on the other end of my phone 'WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LEAVE ME BE' and I retreat back into my turtle shell.
There is a very small voice inside of me that tells me that we aren't done.
Praying and believing.
Read a VERY good devotion today about making room for your blessings. Something is telling me to let go.
And my heart just skipped a beat. Finding it hard to breathe right now.
Pastor says that often times God will have everyone turn their back on you to bring your closer to Him. This hurts but I'm sensing it's necessity.
The otherside of everything that is happening to me is going to be abundance beyond my wildest dreams. I claim that.
He emailed me, I want to answer but instead I deleted it. Because I can't. His words spoke miles and my heart broke into even more pieces. I just can't do it anymore. My sanity is worth so much more.
Gotta let it go......
Fin.
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